JulianTopherik's Xanga

Took me 6 years...

Fri, 17 Aug 2007 19:36:00 GMT

I guess I got tired of waiting...

I got my driver's license!

Two Weeks Ago...

Wed, 18 Jul 2007 01:40:00 GMT

Two weeks ago
     I closed the bathroom door.
Two weeks ago
     I took off my shorts, but nothing else.
Two weeks ago
     I turned on the bathtub water.
Two weeks ago
     I watched as the water reached the top.
Two weeks ago
     I turned off the bathtub water.
Two weeks ago
     I stepped into the bath water
Two weeks ago
     I laid down in the water, my head dry.
Two weeks ago
     I tried not to think of those back home.
Two weeks ago
     I didn't think I would be here.
Two weeks ago

To my little JayBird

Tue, 10 Jul 2007 22:54:10 GMT

HAPPY FIRST BIRTHDAY JAY'LAMON FRANCISCO DESHAWN DAVIS (SOON TO BE LOPEZ)!!!!!!

I love you oh so much.

-JT

Heart Breaking

Mon, 18 Jun 2007 03:56:23 GMT

Father's Day is today and it's just a weird day now. Just last year my brother's normal life ended on Father's Day. It's heart breaking to think that his first official Father's Day was downtown at the county jail. Jay'Lamon is as cute as can be and is already almost one. My brother has had to watch him grow up through a glass over this year. Will it be the same for 30 more years?

-JT

Over?

Wed, 13 Jun 2007 02:55:54 GMT

Ever been so down, that if you didn't cry, you would stop breathing?

What's Happening

Tue, 05 Jun 2007 01:05:26 GMT

Let’s talk about this

This situation…

Situation that feels planned

Life works interwoven

Interwoven with…

With choices that are made

If this didn’t happen

Then that wouldn’t have happened…

They shared angry lies

Lies untrue…

Untrue to two young men

Murder is extreme

Extreme, but…

But they made it worse.

If this didn’t happen

Then that wouldn’t have happened…

He asked him to come

Come for fun…

Fun party, but uninvited

He didn’t want to go

Go to sleep…

Sleep would have saved him.

If this didn’t happen

Then that wouldn’t have happened…

The other wants to leave

Leave the other…

Other men wouldn’t let him

The two young men met

Met and fought

Fought until the gun was shot

If this didn’t happen

Then that wouldn’t have happened…

Another young man falls

Falls to the ground…

Ground starts to shake around him

The other leaves in fear

Fear of what

What he has caused him to do

Since this happened

What have you planned to happen?

Injured...

Thu, 26 Apr 2007 02:56:28 GMT

So... I don't know how to start this, but I really need to get this frustration off of my chest.

One of my roommates, last night, decided to invite two girls over. Not so much a problem (even if it's Finals Week), except for the fact that they left at freaking 8:40 this morning. What were they doing you might ask? Laughing about the stupidest things. That's all they did was laugh and I didn't understand the purpose of hanging out that long. Of course it kept me up, so I got little sleep last night. I was extremely tired, but because of the laughs I could not go to sleep. His laugh... it irks me every time I hear it and now I cannot even stand the site of him... there's more that happened...

So the title of this post is injured... yeah... so I am injured... This morning my alarm went off at 9:30am. Because I got so little sleep, I rushed to turn off my alarm so that I could sleep a little longer. I moved so fast that I fell off my bed head first. Now falling off a bed isn't such a bad thing usually, but the fact that the top of the bed is higher than the top of my head proves that it was quite a fall. First I hit my desk and then fell on the floor. I laid there for a second not sure what just happened. Derek, my cool roommate, got out of bed to make sure I was okay... he really thought I had died. I told him I was fine, but my leg was really hurting... as time went on it got worse, now my neck is stiff and it's hard to move.

Every time I see him or hear his voice, I want to kill him. I am trying so hard not to let him get to me.

But I've never done this before and with the way I am feeling at the moment I feel it is appropriate:

Damn you Daniel Winter! Damn you!

Wow...

Wed, 28 Feb 2007 14:39:08 GMT

Is this what a heart feels like?

I know it's a little late, but here it goes... 2006

Thu, 15 Feb 2007 18:20:23 GMT

2006 was a year of change... and challenge...

Cymbalta became my friend

Father's Day: Brother accidentally killed his best friend and is now in jail...

July 10, 2006: Jay'Lamon Francisco DeShawn Davis was born... (my first nephew)!

Secrets revealed...

Counseling Sessions started...

Friendships are a funny thing... especially when they're superficial...

Dad got in trouble...

2006 was a rough year... It still lingers in 2007.

Just in case you didn't know...

Tue, 13 Feb 2007 20:31:54 GMT

I got my driver's permit on Friday...

Maybe a driver's license is just around the corner...

stay tuned...

-JT